As I wake up I find myself in a strange half-light. I detect a set of familiar objects, but it is as if they are placed in a completely unknown environment. A room I have never seen before. There is a strange sketch-like quality to the objects – as if they are only possibilities. Emerging from obscurity. From another level of reality.
After a few moments I realize that I am actually at home, that the strange light cast on everything is just the weak morning light rising. Reassured I rest a while, getting to grips with the situation and the tasks of my travel ahead.
Then another complete break in the continuum of space and time; as I sit up I feel my face taking on an expression of my lover. As if her facial expression emerges in my face. This morning she is far away, probably sleeping in her own flow of time. Here though, in my room, she is momentary present – as her expression on my face. What is that deep layer of emotions that makes this possibility happen?
Once again I pull myself together and speed back to my mundane tasks, but the two incidents colors my morning. Even though both experiences are emotional – sensorial perceptions, they are functions of an automatisation. My body controlled by some outside power. Technobody – not in the robotic sense, but as a bodily reaction controlled from something exterior. In soft gentle ways – these are soft perceptive sensations. Still images from afar. My sensorial organs projecting emotional events from a strange layer of alien possibilities.
automaton |ôˈtämətən, -ˌtän|
noun (pl. automata |-tə| or automatons)
a moving mechanical device made in imitation of a human being.
- a machine that performs a function according to a predetermined set of coded instructions, esp. one capable of a range of programmed responses to different circumstances.
- used in similes and comparisons to refer to a person who seems to act in a mechanical or unemotional way: she went about her preparations like an automaton.
ORIGIN early 17th cent.: via Latin from Greek, neuter of automatos ‘acting of itself,’ from autos ‘self.’
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